excitement?
Apr. 22nd, 2001 10:22 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sanpaku_backupNothing really to get excited about. I kind of wonder if I stop posting how long it would take for them to delete me. How long before being reabsorbed into the void. Hm.
Anyway things are swinging from "nothing's happening worth writing about" to "too much has happened to really say anything coherent about." Not to get anyone's hopes up, though. It's just like I went home and talked to a lot of people I haven't talked to and the weather is nice again and all that. It is that brief springtime feeling of "I'm gonna do this, and this, and this, and then I'm gonna get that done, finally, and then I can do that." Then it goes with 1/20th of those things being done, and then it's the summer and you don't want to leave the house or move or do anything.
So we're right at that moment. Prompted by "holy shit everybody I know has gotten a raise and they don't have no Ph.D." and "fuck I'm like never going to get a teaching job and I got this damn Ph.D. and what am I going to do with my life now" kinds of thoughts. With a sprinkle of "everyone's life sounds so interesting and they're meeting people and being creative and accomplishing stuff and why can't I do that?" kind of thoughts. As well as "oh yeah now I'm gonna finally have time to do that just as soon as I do that other thing but now I DEFINITELY have time..." Not to mention "I read a review of this person's book/movie/play/poetry and they're younger than I am but I can't get my god damn act together even though I KNOW I'm smarter than them" etc etc etc.
ETC.
Anyway things are swinging from "nothing's happening worth writing about" to "too much has happened to really say anything coherent about." Not to get anyone's hopes up, though. It's just like I went home and talked to a lot of people I haven't talked to and the weather is nice again and all that. It is that brief springtime feeling of "I'm gonna do this, and this, and this, and then I'm gonna get that done, finally, and then I can do that." Then it goes with 1/20th of those things being done, and then it's the summer and you don't want to leave the house or move or do anything.
So we're right at that moment. Prompted by "holy shit everybody I know has gotten a raise and they don't have no Ph.D." and "fuck I'm like never going to get a teaching job and I got this damn Ph.D. and what am I going to do with my life now" kinds of thoughts. With a sprinkle of "everyone's life sounds so interesting and they're meeting people and being creative and accomplishing stuff and why can't I do that?" kind of thoughts. As well as "oh yeah now I'm gonna finally have time to do that just as soon as I do that other thing but now I DEFINITELY have time..." Not to mention "I read a review of this person's book/movie/play/poetry and they're younger than I am but I can't get my god damn act together even though I KNOW I'm smarter than them" etc etc etc.
ETC.
