The Way of the World
Oct. 16th, 2000 08:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sanpaku_backupI don't remember what I was going to write under this heading. This happens to me all the time. I am walking home from work and I have some great idea for what to write in my LiveJournal, and now all I can remember is the stupid header. That and that I am PISSED OFF at my landlord, still. I am the sort of person whom feelings of powerlessness and revenge will control until they get out of my system... maybe 6 months or so from now, if ever.
Financial pressures bring out my futile efforts at reining in spending. I took out the ledger so I can keep track of what we spend all our money on. I know from past experience that I can only do this for about 3 days before I lose interest. I find some way to gain a cash infusion temporarily and forget keeping track of everything until the next crisis in 4-6 months. I often reflect that if I knew how much of my life at 29 would be taken up with worrying about money I might have rethought my life path.
I hate to admit to Ron that I am not buying a guitar for a while because we just can't make any more big-ticket purchases. The printing mailing etc of the dissertation has just been too much. I think about it every day, though.
What else is up my ass today. I had the fun of meeting my replacement for writing history content at the company today. It's nothing personal, I am on loan from another department and they need me back, and I like my boss and all that. But for about 5 weeks I have been writing history, which is what I am trained to do. Now I will go back to proofreading, which I am not trained to do. I am not terrible at it, but there are people who are better at it than I, and it can be fatiguing, so I kind of wanted to stay. Then again, who knows how long the company will exist, the way the Nasdaq has been this year.
My parents were in town this weekend, which was nice. They didn't sniff at the house, so it must be OK. They said very nice and supportive things. We had a good time. But today it was cold and rainy, very gloomy again, after being Indian Summer for the weekend. I have too many loose ends right now.
Financial pressures bring out my futile efforts at reining in spending. I took out the ledger so I can keep track of what we spend all our money on. I know from past experience that I can only do this for about 3 days before I lose interest. I find some way to gain a cash infusion temporarily and forget keeping track of everything until the next crisis in 4-6 months. I often reflect that if I knew how much of my life at 29 would be taken up with worrying about money I might have rethought my life path.
I hate to admit to Ron that I am not buying a guitar for a while because we just can't make any more big-ticket purchases. The printing mailing etc of the dissertation has just been too much. I think about it every day, though.
What else is up my ass today. I had the fun of meeting my replacement for writing history content at the company today. It's nothing personal, I am on loan from another department and they need me back, and I like my boss and all that. But for about 5 weeks I have been writing history, which is what I am trained to do. Now I will go back to proofreading, which I am not trained to do. I am not terrible at it, but there are people who are better at it than I, and it can be fatiguing, so I kind of wanted to stay. Then again, who knows how long the company will exist, the way the Nasdaq has been this year.
My parents were in town this weekend, which was nice. They didn't sniff at the house, so it must be OK. They said very nice and supportive things. We had a good time. But today it was cold and rainy, very gloomy again, after being Indian Summer for the weekend. I have too many loose ends right now.
